Thank you, David

Me: I was going to be Pamela Adams.
Dave: And now you're Adam's Pamela.

Life is so odd. I find it funny how subconsciously our brains connect seasons to feelings and feelings to people and people to music, et cetera. I've been listening to Sea Wolf a lot lately. And (I don't know which came first, chicken or egg, take your pick) thinking of Brandon, whom I almost married, and met two years and a couple weeks ago.

Today I spent a lot of time thinking about knitting him his green scarf for christmas. And humming along to something off of In Rainbows with him laughing at me for singing to the melody rather than waiting for the words. Someone mentioned Eraserhead tonight even.

I looked up pictures and he and Adam could be brothers. Their similarities are striking. Both physically and in their personalities.

But their differences are also extreme. And I think the differences in people are the most important things to note. They're both so wonderful in their own ways. 

I've come a long way in two years. In some ways I'm so much happier. But sometimes I miss so much certain moments that can't be regained. Live, love, lose, move on. That's the cycle. And it's rather beautiful, though heartbreaking at times.

iesntfpj

So the whole personality type thing has gotten a bit out of control. That being said, I really like ISTP's. That being said, I'm ridiculously happy (Kristi said glowing. But that's subjective).

I've been awake most of the night (morning) coughing, but even so, it's been a lovely past ten hours.

I love a lot of people in Utah (you most of all, C). I love a lot of people all over the world. Being able to take care of a few of them makes my heart soar. Every time I say or text the L word to one of my girlies I get a little giddy and light. It's good to have people to count on, people to love, people who expect good from me. It keeps life worth living.

So there you have it. Just a little bit of fluffy goodness. Now back to bed. Good night (morning).

Lost in that good feeling

Well my vote for top 3 in Project Runway is obviously out. I'm just glad Christian and Jillian are still in. And Christian's outfit this week was fierce! He totally should have won! The fact that Ricky is still on is a joke. I mean his clothes up till now have just been so blaaaah.

I listened to Sarah Blasko in the car today. It's been ages since I listened to her. It brought back great memories of Australia. Her voice is so delicate, which matches her features. Seeing her in Brisbane was a definite highlight. So lovely.

I'm sitting here staring at the screen trying to think of something interesting to write, but honestly, I don't have much. I'm happy. Things are good and they're getting better. That's a bit boring, but I'm ok with boring.

One small thing of note: someone I trust said to me today "the opposite of love is indifference." I thought that was interesting and true.

I've been wondering how my cousin Carolyn is doing in the MTC. Maybe I'll track down her address and send her a letter.

I know I'll be safe in these arms

Aaaaaagh! Sometimes! I love Brandon so much! That I want to run around screaming it for hours on end! haha

He is seriously perfect. I don't even understand how I got so lucky. Man.

Ok, sorry, that was really mushy, I know, but I just had to get it out.

Anyway, Urban Outfitters shipped my coat today. Finally. I am so excited. I've been wearing the same purple plaid coat (as seen in my profile pic) for over two years now, and it was time for an upgrade. So I bought this pretty little thing online for about 30% of the original price. The yellow so completely matches nothing that it actually kind of goes with everything. I love it!

Also on the topic of shopping, if you live in the SLC area, I have a new blog you should check out: www.yourheartout.com. I read it semi religiously, taking notes for when I move back down there. They've got tips on the cutest clothes shops, restaurants, furniture stores, and other miscellany in the Utah Valley and surrounding area. It's great if you're looking for one of those hidden treasure kind of places, or if you want a knick knack that's truly original. I highly recommend checking them out.

Well, it's mon pere's birthday, so I'm off to celebrate old age hah. Wishing you all the best of evenings!